We’re in a strange season of life. We have additional family living with us and I find myself tossed between tasks, spending purposeful time with my kids, sanity, life counseling, and full-time nannying. It’s exhausting and honestly, uncomfortable.
Recently, I found myself wondering if we were doing the right thing and I literally said to myself that I don’t want my kids to feel like I had to make them less than my top priority because…. and I had to pause because the thing that came to mind is “because we put following Jesus first.”
It stung a little coming out— of course, I didn’t say it out loud but I would have if I had been talking to anyone else but myself (hello, motherhood, I talk to myself! Lol)
Isn’t that what I want?? Don’t I want my kids to see me making sacrifices for the Kingdom? Isn’t that the point? Isn’t that the only time I want them to feel a little “neglected” if need be because that’s how important following Christ is?
Of course I don’t want them to feel neglected, to feel less than a top priority, but in this season of sacrifice (for us all—them included) aren’t I teaching them what “suffering” in its most basic sense is? Aren’t I showing them firsthand that we love even when it’s not easy and convenient, like Christ loved and continues to love us?!
Every day a new lesson and a new exposure of my sinful heart and His Heart of Love and Grace!